I wish I could see myself how they see me. The ones that see the real me.

They call me special and handsome but I don’t see it. They say there’s something in me they can’t see in others. That my character is different than other guys. They say they like the way I dress and that I make them smile.

I guess it’s easier to focus on the negative things people call me.

I’ve been called ugly, gay, feminine, a loser, too skinny, too white, ghetto, lazy, a poser. I’ve been told I’ll never be anything…all of these seem to outweigh the compliments.

But what I really wish. What I really dream of achieving one day…I wish I could see myself how God sees me. One day that will happen and I will look at my past, laughing that I even cared about these labels that I still wear. Some proudly and some with shame.